158
Thursday, February 25, 2016
Sunday, February 14, 2016
February Weight
154
I had periods starting on January 1 and January 16. I started cramping and feeling like crap again on February 5, and today I've started another period. My typical cycle the last couple of years has been 32-34 days, and I've never in my life had periods 16 days apart. This isn't funny.
I'm sure my weight gain is a factor in making it worse, but my PCOS is really trying to murder me right now :(
I'm in a black haze of nihilism. I've been keeping up (until this last long workweek) with my physical therapy exercises and having almost no pain (until this last long workweek... things headed south after Wednesday night and I'm trying not to worry too much). Because I've destroyed the way my body looks, my only hope is to love what my body DOES, and while I've seen brief glimmers of hope that I can still accomplish great things, I'm having trouble getting the idea to stick.
I had periods starting on January 1 and January 16. I started cramping and feeling like crap again on February 5, and today I've started another period. My typical cycle the last couple of years has been 32-34 days, and I've never in my life had periods 16 days apart. This isn't funny.
I'm sure my weight gain is a factor in making it worse, but my PCOS is really trying to murder me right now :(
I'm in a black haze of nihilism. I've been keeping up (until this last long workweek) with my physical therapy exercises and having almost no pain (until this last long workweek... things headed south after Wednesday night and I'm trying not to worry too much). Because I've destroyed the way my body looks, my only hope is to love what my body DOES, and while I've seen brief glimmers of hope that I can still accomplish great things, I'm having trouble getting the idea to stick.
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