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Showing posts with label monthly weight. Show all posts
Showing posts with label monthly weight. Show all posts
Thursday, December 1, 2016
Friday, October 7, 2016
Oops
The scale did not make it to the trash before the impulse faded.
10/2 official October weight 171.0
Today's weight 168.8
10/2 official October weight 171.0
Today's weight 168.8
Friday, June 3, 2016
June 1
6/1: 162.0
6/2: 158.6
Today, breakfast was a glass of milk.
Snack was a juice box.
Lunch was one breadstick with cheese sauce.
Snack was another juice box.
Driving-home-nom was a strawberry shortcake (my boss bought one for everyone on the unit today).
Dinner/bedtime snack will hopefully be Not Much.
Maybe budging weight will help with the pain.
Sunday, April 3, 2016
April Weight
164
*unhinged laughing*
My first thought, of course, is to eat all the junk in my apartment then... not eat.
You don't have to tell me that's a bad idea.
*unhinged laughing*
My first thought, of course, is to eat all the junk in my apartment then... not eat.
You don't have to tell me that's a bad idea.
Wednesday, March 2, 2016
March Weight
158.4, which I'm considering 158 because whole numbers are better.
I've officially had it with my weight. I suspect the climbing number is contributing to the increased pain flare-ups over the last 2 weeks.
Restricting is bad for you, but nonstop bingeing is bad for you, and constant pain is very, very bad for you.
3/1
Fasted. 0 calories.
3/2 - Down to 155.0 (oy ve)
Whole milk cottage cheese 130
Deli Turkey 150
Cheddar & mozzarella sticks 170 (450)
Giant Arby's roast beef, only the beef 360 and a little horsey sauce 10 (820)
Whole milk cottage cheese with local raw honey 170 (990)
Oh my word, the cottage cheese and honey was divine. Creamy and sweet. I'd discovered the glory of honey and plain yogurt before, but I have not been in the mood for yogurt lately. This is just as delicious, just in a slightly different way as plain yogurt is more zingy.
10/10 will do again.
It's 10:30 and I have to be at work tomorrow, so I'm trying to turn in without eating more.
I'm reminding myself that being a little hungry won't hurt me. Being a little hungry won't keep me from being able to move. Being a little hungry won't put me in more pain.
I'm not talking about long-term restricting, just about trying to reverse the endless binge I've been on for the last year and a half.
A slippery slope.
Whole milk cottage cheese with local raw honey 170 (990)
Oh my word, the cottage cheese and honey was divine. Creamy and sweet. I'd discovered the glory of honey and plain yogurt before, but I have not been in the mood for yogurt lately. This is just as delicious, just in a slightly different way as plain yogurt is more zingy.
10/10 will do again.
It's 10:30 and I have to be at work tomorrow, so I'm trying to turn in without eating more.
I'm reminding myself that being a little hungry won't hurt me. Being a little hungry won't keep me from being able to move. Being a little hungry won't put me in more pain.
I'm not talking about long-term restricting, just about trying to reverse the endless binge I've been on for the last year and a half.
A slippery slope.
Sunday, February 14, 2016
February Weight
154
I had periods starting on January 1 and January 16. I started cramping and feeling like crap again on February 5, and today I've started another period. My typical cycle the last couple of years has been 32-34 days, and I've never in my life had periods 16 days apart. This isn't funny.
I'm sure my weight gain is a factor in making it worse, but my PCOS is really trying to murder me right now :(
I'm in a black haze of nihilism. I've been keeping up (until this last long workweek) with my physical therapy exercises and having almost no pain (until this last long workweek... things headed south after Wednesday night and I'm trying not to worry too much). Because I've destroyed the way my body looks, my only hope is to love what my body DOES, and while I've seen brief glimmers of hope that I can still accomplish great things, I'm having trouble getting the idea to stick.
I had periods starting on January 1 and January 16. I started cramping and feeling like crap again on February 5, and today I've started another period. My typical cycle the last couple of years has been 32-34 days, and I've never in my life had periods 16 days apart. This isn't funny.
I'm sure my weight gain is a factor in making it worse, but my PCOS is really trying to murder me right now :(
I'm in a black haze of nihilism. I've been keeping up (until this last long workweek) with my physical therapy exercises and having almost no pain (until this last long workweek... things headed south after Wednesday night and I'm trying not to worry too much). Because I've destroyed the way my body looks, my only hope is to love what my body DOES, and while I've seen brief glimmers of hope that I can still accomplish great things, I'm having trouble getting the idea to stick.
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