Official 3-Week Start Weight

136.4 135.0

Gack.

I'm going go focus on three intense weeks of workouts and nutrition management. Goal for the first week is 1000-1500 calories a day - exact goal will depend on how my body handles the change. I figure eating less for a while will give my stressed out tummy a nice break.

I have a 3-day pass to L.A. Fitness that I'll use today through Sunday to use the pool and hot tub. I don't think I'll get a full membership there because the sales guy was kind of an ass and you can't cancel your membership in the club - you have to mail something. Google reviews have some complaints about them. But seriously, he asked what my fitness goals were, "Lose weight? Tone up?" and when he was touring we went by the free weights and he mocked women bodybuilders. Not cool.

I did a huge amount of food prep yesterday and I'll continue working on it today. I chopped peppers and onions, cooked whole grain rice, grated cauliflower "rice" and a bit of broccoli in for color, cut a half ton of zoodles (zucchini noodles) for use as "pasta."

Nothing is cooked besides the rice. My goal today is to cook a bunch of the veggies, season them, measure them into meals with fresh chicken, and freeze them in single-serve portions. I'm also going to cook some oatmeal and save single portions.

I also have yogurt, cottage cheese, and cheese on hand. Lots of yummy fresh things. I even splurged on a half gallon of Oberweiss (from healthy well treated cows, minimally pasteurized, shipped fresh, no plastic/cardboard flavor contamination) milk to see if it's worth it. It is.

Ben & Jerry's Core Ice Cream

...is nasty. They're all NASTY. Except for maybe the spectacular speculum one? Meh.

It's sad, because I adore Ben & Jerry's, but I'm not risking it anymore. No more cores. I en't paying $5 and 1,200 calories for something that makes me want to upchuck.

I bring in May at 135. 137 is the crossover back to overweight BMI, and that AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN. I'm still wanting to intervene with increased exercise rather than severe calorie restriction... but there's no denying I have to stop this emotional overeating. It's going nowhere good.

Premier Weight

Daytime - 135.2. Ick. I wore black to the film.

I DID, however, go out and walk and run with Xander on Tuesday. We spent an hour out at the park, though some was working on leash manners and some was letting Xander play in the pond and do happy puppy zoomy circles around me. We ran for 3 minutes straight. I was only a titch sore the next few days :)

I only hope this weird spasm on the left side of my back isn't an early warning sign of a kidney infection?? It feels very strange.

Evening Weight

Well hydrated, moderate food intake for the day. 134.6. I have been in the 131.X to 135.X range but trouble figuring out when I'm just bloated or dehydrated.  I have been sweating a lot at night, not sure if my PCOS is acting up hormonally or if the urinary tract infection I just took antibiotics for is still hanging around.

I work the next 3 nights. My goal is to at least get carb intake under control. My ideal would be to semi-restrict and see 130.something by Monday. As always, we'll see.

Lately

134-135.fillintheblank

I suspect I can take off a pound or two during my 4-in-a-row work nights starting Saturday.

?!

135?¿? I woke up 4 hours early for a work day, weighed in at 137, drank a glass of water, went back to bed. Woke up needing to pee like crazy, weighed again: 135. I dunno if it's real but I can hope...

Yesterday's intake

Two cupcakes, two glasses of milk, a turkey sandwich.

135.2.

#1 Danger-Will-Robinson DO NOT ENGAGE behavior: chew & spit. HOW does it mess up my body so much? I don't understand; on paper it looks like such a low-risk thing. But a few episodes will have me orthostatic and my blood sugar off for days. It took time to figure out and I was in stubborn denial for a while, but it really is that bad. I can't let myself do it anymore.

#2 Do not engage behavior: bingeing. But I think I'm at the upper levels of stress where I'm past the desire to binge. I had two cupcakes but I didn't really enjoy them, and I had no desire to wolf down the remaining 4 in the package all at once.

#3 Do not engage behavior: restricting. My days off are one thing, but disordered eating CANNOT bleed into my work performance. I need to fuel for work the next few nights. Fueling for work isn't usually a problem, but the last shift I didn't eat enough. Must do better.

Yes. Yes, I'm very hungry.

135.0

34-29-38

Yesterday's intake: two ounces of cashews, a Little Debbie brownie (ugh, how did I like those so much?), and 8 ounces of milk. Could that have been it?? Yes, I think that was it.

135.6.

Homemade something would be an accomplishment

Kitty, the granola + yogurt + honey thing sounds exquisite! I keep meaning to try making granola myself, since oats are so cheap and granola is expensive.

I have been low-carbing it... Weight steadily declining over last few days, even though I'm drinking liter after liter. 135.4 this morning.

135.4.

New "I haven't weighed this little since I was 18" weight.

I hit 135.8 briefly in May, but I intend for it to last this time. I'm going to keep low-carbing at least until I'm in the low 130s.

I have lost exactly 55 pounds. I wonder how soon I can make it 60...

And Again

135.8 yesterday morning, despite consuming two breakfast tacos, most of two donuts*, a big piece of Snickers pie and 3/4 of a large (thin crust) pizza and chugging Diet Coke most of the sleepless night beforehand.

*For me a donut is usually an icing-filled affair. The Marsh here in Wealthy Suburb makes masterpieces that are full-to-the-brim with white or chocolate fluff. They are delicious and stomach-turning and SO far beyond your basic 250-calorie yeast donut. I refuse to even look for nutrition info on them.

Then yesterday I ate an entire donut. I can't remember the last time I actually ate an entire donut - I usually get weird about it by halfway through. More Snickers pie, among other things. I did at least manage to have some chili. Good fiber to push the leftovers through...