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What in HELL is wrong with my body? I can't get my digestive tract going. Don't get me wrong, it's not like literally nothing has happened for 10 days... But nowhere near normal. My belly is huge and I am uncomfortable all the time.

I've been pondering the possible causes. Med changes? Haywire ovary? Diet changes? All are possibly contributing, but I've been paying extra attention to fiber for several days, hence the chili and Fiber Choice. The Fiber Choice will continue regardless of food. I've also bought a fresh veggie & dip tray but so far haven't been able to make myself ear it. My metformin was probably related to a major episode of "when's the last time I pooped?" a while back but once things got going, they kept going. No luck with that yet.

Update: VICTORY. Things are moving. Now I just need to keep them moving. Goal method: Fiber, fiber, fiber.

The scale reflects said movement. Tomorrow's weight will be a big change.

Sausage burrito 300
Triscuits 60
6 slices pizza (280 each) 1680
2 chocolate chip cookies 400
16 oz milk 240

2680. Peachy. No wonder I've gained weight, eh?

2 slices pizza 560
2 chocolate chip cookies 400
12 oz milk 180

*hollers expletives* Total 3820

Maybe not so optimistic about the scale tomorrow anymore.

August 1 (In which Tempest is full of shit)

August weight 139. Truly frightening.

I took 3 Senokot last night and started today with coffee on an empty stomach and FINALLY had some success.

I really want to be doing low carb rn but it requires more effort than I currently have the energy for.
Hopefully in September.

For now I need to increase the fiber and stop the fricking emotional eating.

And start lifting. Also will probably be September.

Half bun McChicken 480
Half bun double cheeseburger plus Big Mac sauce 400
Half bun Southern chicken sandwich plus cheese & mayo 530
Milk 220
Cupcakes 410*
*Finally! Bakery cupcakes with nutrition info. 210 for ones that are kinda easy on the frosting, so the properly iced ones are still surely under 300.
(2040)
Cupcake 210 (2250)
Fiber Choice (fruit flavored fiber tablets - my fiber drink is no longer sold locally :.(.. ) 30
Cupcake 210 (2490)

Tis terrible. I helped Props Master move today, so hopefully that tempers the effect of the overeating.

No-Weigh August lasted 4 days!

Well, until August 4th. I'm sure I was scale-less for a week altogether.

140.2 daytime, 138.4 morning. We'll call it 139. I'm still going to try to weigh less often. Would love to end August at 135 (Goal Weight 8, aka 80% to "healthy" goal).

Marshmallow Hands

My hands are swollen again. It's almost 2 weeks since my period started, increasing my suspicions that this is the latest symptom development of my reproductive system trying to kill me.

I do not know my weight. I was 139 after I ran 3 miles earlier this week (evening), 139 in the morning a day or two later. That means I've been maintaining since April, which is (of course, as always, ad infinitim) both pleasing and annoying. I haven't gained. Not Real Weight.

I've been having mini-binges periodically but also restricting periodically. The urge seems to be random, and I suspect it is all evening out into a very unhealthy method of weight maintenance.

Year to date:

January 1: 157

February 1: 153

March 1: 145

April 1: 139

May 1: 137

June 1: 137

July 1: 138

August: ?!?!?

139.8

The Crazies

A pumpkin pie happened yesterday.

139.4 happened this morning.

Orientation happens tomorrow.

I need to be content with maintaining again.

I need to worry about being strong. My work requires strength.

I have lost so much of it.

139.2, second day of period (<-explains some of the flushy hotness. This is the first time I've had imaginary hot lamps on me all night, 2 nights before period AND last night. It's only been around ovulation before. Seriously, menopause symptoms at 28? Not funny). Eating every 2-3 hours to keep blood sugar from crashing. My baggies of apples+string cheese and walnuts+M&Ms are holding me over well. I guess it's a little better than only cottage cheese & chow mein noodles (mmm, I know what I need to eat next)? I bought a bag of avocados and am determined not forget and let them rot, so it's been salad with a whole avocado the last 3 nights. Avocado = bliss. And apparently about 3 grams of carbohydrate per ounce, so it's also "safe."

I feel frustrated that I haven't lost weight at all this month, I need to remember that Not Gaining = Progress.

Maintaining is good, because maintaining is better than gaining.

Really, isn't maintaining the most difficult skill of all? Almost anyone can crash diet to a goal weight, but it's what you do when you stop the "diet" that dictates how things play out.

Premature Creole Food Baby

140.2 during my insomnia last night, 139.2 today.

I didn't special order (forgot, actually) but ate the stew off the top of the rice. I did eat most of the bread, it would have been criminal not to. K DID stare at my plate incredulously and say "Are you feeling ok?!" because I'm usually licking crumbs off the floor at this place, lol. I gave the blood sugar line.

But it was WS's first time there and she wanted to try the peanut butter pie. I would've caved and gotten a slice, but they ran out while we were eating (sniffle/whew).

Steady as she goes

139.0. I think I'm starting the pre-period bloat. Things are crazy. I'm trying to eat more. Figured I'd hook myself into a meal with somebody and called K up for dinner at an enormous Chinese-American buffet that has a lot of "safe" foods (meat = safe). I ate less than a plate's worth and had to sit and yap for an hour before I could get down a half plate of seconds.

Hurtling toward a 9-year low

139.6