5

128.8

2 (ugh)

128.6

Why couldn't I have had this number yesterday?!

One of the most important parts of the monthly official weight is that I am not allowed to mess around and get a "fake" low weight. For example, restricting for a few days at the end of the month. I don't think I have never let myself go "I don't like that number" and wait a few days to weigh again.

That being said, I do think it's fair to skip an official 1st weight if it's totally out of whack with the other numbers I get. I have never gotten over 130. I don't think I've seen over 129.0 max in the mornings, maybe still the 128s.

I guess I'll see how the next few days go and decide. I want my 2015 weight to be what I actually truly weighed at the beginning of the year, not some massive number because I overate by a few thousand calories. When you take into consideration that I ate an entire pizza for dinner, it's easy to think there would be 3 pounds of tummy rubbish and salt fluid retention.

Eating was slightly less crappy yesterday, mostly because I was at work and there were no goodies for sharing in the break room. I only had one protein shake before I got home, then ate a lot from 8 pm-midnight.

28th December, 28 days til I turn 30, 128.8 lb

Numbers are so weird.

128.8

Either the eating has caught up with me or my PCOS is acting up (well it is, I don't pass the nipple pinch test and I'm having night sweats and I feel like crap but it is what it is). Probably both, really. My digestive tract is not moving properly and all laxatives do is cause something really enthusiastic to happen after about 3 consecutive days of taking the normal dose.

Fuck my body.

It doesn't matter exactly what the weight is, it has to come back off. 

22

128.8

Bean chips 200

30 minute puppy walk

6:30 pm: that's it, no more food yet, just Diet Coke and a cigarette. And I will probably Benadryl myself to sleep tonight. Fucking Drama Club shit.

I posted a pic to The Storm Is Within about body size, then I panicked that the dressing room mirror might be one of those ones that distort you so you look slimmer. I went to another dressing room today (trying to find required items for improv show costume) and I still can't figure out if my eyes OR my iPhone are capturing my actual size. It's driving me nuttier than I already am. (Will post a few pics to TSIW later)

30 minute puppy walk

(60 min)

Bean chips 280

Salsa 30

Ham 100

(610)

Budge (final)

128.8
29" waist

Mostly bunless burger 10, 0
Half bun McChicken 20, 0
I didn't get up early enough to pack a proper lunch last night, and I behaved myself and didn't nab any of the carby snacks at work. I guesstimated my calories for the day at 900.
Coffee with cream 6, 0
Peanut butter 12, 4
(48, 4)
Coworker shared niblets of broccoli and General Tso's chicken (breaded) 10, 2?
Protein water 1, 5
(59, 11)
More Tso's chicken 30, 0?
Protein water 1, 5
(90, 16)

Oh, these little earthquakes. Here we go again.

Slept better, still night sweats. Morning 127.6.
What the what?
1/2 fancy pants McChicken
1/2 cup fresh veggies
1 paper plate of retirement party goodies (2 mini muffins, 2 fruit tarts, a big wad of buffalo chicken dip with half a dozen crackers)
2 liters iced tea
1 liter diet cranberry soda
1/2-1 liter water
Bedtime weight: 128