Now Airing: Tempest's Binge Spectacular!

I have not been crashy lately, but to stave off any potential post-binge crashes yesterday, I simply kept eating til I fell asleep.

I AM THE QUEEN OF LOGIC.

142.0 this morning. When I woke, even my hands were swollen and stiff feeling, like at the end of a really long walk.

I wanted to measure my rigid, distended abdomen to horrify myself into avoiding future binges (ie Binge = 3" more waist? No thank you) but I couldn't find my fracking tape measure. Gah.

I may not eat today.

I think that now, but I also know that in a few hours hunger will probably get the best of me.

I do not want to be all swollen binge-belly at the baby shower this weekend. I want to be all "No thanks to the cake, it looks lovely, but I have to eat carefully to keep my blood sugar from dropping" and go home hungry.

Over the hump?

142.6 yesterday (I did obscene things with Boston Market the day before), 141.4 today. Intend to continue the downward trend.

Freaking ladyparts, obscuring whether it's real weight or cycle weight. How much weight will I lose with a hysterectomy?

I have a dinner date with WS and K tonight. It's going to be weird ordering the stew-over-rice New Orleans style meal as stew-over-nothing, but I'm going to do it. I may eat the bread though, K will ask what the hell is wrong if I don't eat the bread (half the time I get extra bread because it is so freaking good). Maybe I'll eat half and shove the rest at him and say I'm not hungry :P

Aw heck, I'm overthinking it. All I have to do is say "my blood sugar is playing tricks on me" and they will think "Poor Tempest, she can't eat the bread and rice," not "Tempest is being weird and not eating."

Floodgates

I forgot to bring a lunch to work last night. I did have a Glucerna shake in my bag, but when mixed with diet soda they tend to have quite a dramatic reaction in my tum and the bubbles don't come out.

I brought in a few dollars for the vending machines in case I had a blood sugar emergency (I ALWAYS fuel for work if I need to. Always.) but didn't get anything in the end.

At the end of my shift, I worried that I would be dehydrated... Nothing but Diet Coke all night. So I had 32 ounces of water from then until I went to bed.

I kept waking up needing to get rid of that water.

Guess it's a no to dehydration again.

142.2 today.

Come again?

142.8. Umm, what? I was up to 146.something yesterday, and I ate more than usual lately, so I expected about 147. The possibilities are 1 - I just dropped a few pounds of ov weight or 2 - I'm really dehydrated.

I'm not taking my chances with dehydration, so I downed 32 ounces of water with my breakfast.

I'm also determined to up my intake more: if I'm really losing weight this fast I need to put the brakes on before I crash, burn, and gain.

Here's the rule: low refined carbohydrate. That's it. Goal: lots of veggies. Just a goal. If it is low carb, it is safe. I'll probably go for a max of 20-30 grams per meal and 10 per snack, but I want to stay in the not-really-counting zone. It seems to be working so far.

By the way, I just set a lifetime record. At 18 I could lose 7 pounds in a week, but I'd gain it back over the next two. In 2010, I lost 10 pounds in a month on low refined carbohydrate and pretty much kept it off. I started restricting around February 14th, so I just lost 10 pounds in 3 weeks o.O

I WILL NOT gain it back. I WILL NOT spaz if I am up a few pounds for a few days because I am eating more (well, maybe a little), because tummy rubbish is not real weight. I WILL NOT rebound and gain.

I am *THIS CLOSE* to being within 20 pounds of my healthy goal.