Bless me, father, for I have sinned (23)

I took this picture before the meal at Perkins, intent on a slice of peanut butter cup pie.

After a meal with pancakes and fried potatoes, I feel too sick to be considering pie. Even to go.

I think I've got it out of my system for now. I'll go to the Y today and swim to make up for it. 

22

Howww am I still peeing out ketones when I pretty much had an 80 g carb supper last night?! No idea.

Waist is creeping under the 29" mark.

More apartment hunting with Charlie today, so a meal out may derail me a little. Friendship > food, right? Right. Right. Remind me later.

Apartment hunting rescheduled due to Charlie needing to help his gram move, so I have been independently misbehaving:

Half bun quarter pounder with cheese 24 g
Four piece chicken strips with ranch & honey mustard (OUCH more carbs in the chicken breading than I realized) 34 g (58 g)
Half bun filet o fish 25 g (83 g)

BUT I did some weighted squats and rows today (~60 lb back squats, ~22 lb single arm rows) - enough that I should be pleasantly sore tomorrow. At least I've burned up some of those carbs and given my body a cue on where to put all the protein!

Pistachios and cocoa almonds 9 (92 g)

21 (final)

Mozza & cheddar 5
Cashews 5
Ham & Swiss on lettuce 5
Hardees chicken taquitos 31 (46)
Chicken pot pie 34 (80)
Cocoa cream 18 (98)

I'm having trouble with cramps in my calves and arms, I'm exhausted, and I'm a weird mix of stressed/happy. The result is that I've treated myself to several higher carb items today, including mixing a tablespoon of real brown sugar into my cocoa cream. My total is still ok-ish, so I'll worry about getting back on my feet tomorrow.

20 (final)

Tsk, Sammy, don't make me punish you for being naughty...

Mozza & cheddar sticks 2
Half bun bacon double cheeseburger 17
Double quarter pound burger with cheese, no bun 7
Filet O' Fish half bun (they put extra cheese on by accident and wasting cheese is against my religion...) 25 (51)
Peanut butter 18 (69)
Pistachios, peanut M&Ms 20 (89)

19

Half bun Sausage McMuffin 20 g carbs
Bacon, turkey sausage, eggs with cheese, gravy, one slice sourdough with blackberry jelly 45 g (65)

I had lunch with Charlie so I splurged a little. Not sure how I want to handle dinner, as I'm pretty high already for the day. We'll see where the mood leads me.

18 (final)

Mozzarella & cheddar sticks 2 g carbs

Pepper Triscuits 12 g (14)

It's 9 pm. That can't be all I've eaten. Is that all I've eaten?!

Yes, it's all I've eaten. I'm about to change that, though.

Edit: I was going to make a post work treat of cocoa iced cream, but my back hurts too much and I do not have the energy.

Turkey, parmesan, creamy Italian on romaine salad 20 g (34)
Pistachios & cocoa almonds 9 g (43)

17 (final)

4 pepper Triscuits 12 g carbs
Special K protein shake (I divided it into two meals) 25 g (37)
Peanut butter 12 g (49)
Cheddar & mozza sticks 2 g (51)
Chicken chili 20 (71)
Pistachios 5 (76)
Bologna, American, ketchup 10 g (86)

16 (final)

Morning waist 29" the last two mornings.

Doctor's office clothed weight 62.8 kg, which comes to 138 lb. adjusted for clothing, that puts me at about 136. It's not good, but it's better than 141.4.

I have now been without a scale for three weeks. I'm still not sure how I feel about it. I bought some Ketostix and I've been checking ketones at an absurd frequency. Part of it is the novelty, I guess. I didn't really expect any ketosi a at 100 g of carbs a day. 

1/3 bun bacon double cheeseburger 12 g carbs.
Low carb burrito 17 g (29)
Chicken chili 20 g (49)
Chili cheese dogs in a low carb wrap with ketchup 21 (70)

15 (final)

8 oz 2% milk 12 g carbs
4 Pepper Triscuits 12 g
More milk 12 g (36)
Chicken chili 20 g (56)
Cocoa almonds & roasted cashews 12 (68)

Cheese dogs & chili cheese dogs 10 (78)

14 (final)

Waist 29 1/4"

Slowly, surely.

I was starting to get discouraged, but as I stop being a low carb human garbage disposal, my waist has started to shrink. Little by little.

Roasted cashews 16 g carbs

Low carb burrito with seasoned beef, American cheese, cream cheese 17 g (33)

I'm normally more into real cheeses, not just American, but I keep buying cheese and not eating it fast enough and it molds. So for now, American, as it comes in single-wrapped slices and stays unspoiled longer.

Holy Grail pizza crust 9 g (42)

I'm making some chicken  chili and I sliced a finger on a can lid :( I don't think I need stitches, but the cut, the bleeding, washing the cut, and trying to pull it open so I could tell how deep it is kinda took away my appetite. Not sure if I'll eat any tonight.

Bought some Ketostix and I'm positive for urine ketones, so I'm on the right track. It may also be responsible for my nausea that started yesterday :/

Nibbles of chicken chili: 10 g
The ugliest layered Jello & cream you've ever seen: 5 g (57) Still tastes good, though.

13 (final)

Scrambled eggs, cheese, bacon 5 g carbs
Black olive pizza on holy grail low carb crust 26 g (31)
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I suspect some ingredient from the above foods was a little off, most likely the bacon or pizza sauce. I've cleared out everything remotely aged in my fridge, as my tummy is a little upset and I'd rather not repeat the crime. It's not terrible, though.

I've got a sugar free Jello with whipped cream concoction setting in the fridge. I'm going to try to layer a few colors/flavors but I've never done it before, so fingers crossed...
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I nabbed a bit of the green stuff as it's not all set and I want to go to bed.

Jello & cream 3 g (34)

12 (final)

Bologna American wrap 14
4 slices pizza, just the toppings (at work. in public. yes, I am an animal) guesstimate 30
Cauli-Roni with sausage guesstimate 20 (cauli is 8, how many can there possibly be in seasonings and sausage?) (64)

11 (final)

I'm in this weird limbo where my massive appetite is mostly gone, but I get really fatigued if I don't eat. Long, brutal shifts at work this week with little time to drink, let alone eat. I am so exhausted.

8 oz 2% milk 12
Half bun bacon double cheeseburger 17 g (I think I counted it as 30 last time because I was too tired to look up nutrition info. The bun is 23 g carbs, so assuming the top half that I eat is a little over half, I count the 13, and the condiments are 4 g) (29)
Bologna, American cheese, ketchup (comfort food) 11 g (40)
Spinach salad with feta cheese, glazed pecans, and dried pears & cranberries 25 g (65)
Small microwave dinner (Michelina's) of cheese manicotti 30 g (95)

10 (final)

Morning waist: 29.75," down from 30.5" yay.

Sausage, cheese, & tomato omelet 10

Chicken alfredo & black olives 20 (30)

Dark chocolate squares 15 (45)

9 (final)

2% milk 12

Quiche & cheese 20 (32)
Dark chocolate peanut butter iced cream (a lot) 15 (45 g)

8 (final)

2% milk 12

Bacon double cheeseburger, half bun 30

Quiche & cheese 18 (60)

Dark chocolate peanut butter ice cream (BEST RANDOM THING I'VE THROWN TOGETHER IN MY LFE) 5 (65)

7 (final)

CP - The frozen coconut has a waxy mouth feel that is a particular hate of mine, but it is DIVINE thawed and soft. I think it needs a little cinnamon, too.

Today will make a full week of successful low-carb?! YAY.

I have definitely not seen or felt any physical changes, but I have been eating vast quantities of the foods I'm documenting, and it's almost all extremely high calorie.

I keep getting THIIIS CLOSE to getting out and moving, and not making it.

Biggest hurdle is that the AC is out in my car, and it is getting hot. Daytime highs are in the 80s, and on a sunny day that makes my car an oven. I'm sick and shaky by the time I get anywhere. The idea of working out when you're already overheated is appalling.

I work Monday, so should be able to demand a proper conversation with my mechanic sometime on Tuesday and get a fix date then.

Scrambled eggs with American and bacon  6 g
More bacon, black olives 14 g (20)
Low carb spiced pumpkin pancakes 30 (I added a lot of stuff and a sprinkle of brown sugar) (50)
Vanilla coconut smoothie 10 (60)
Chicken tikka masala with zoodles 20 (80)
Dark chocolate peanut butter iced cream 15 (95)

6 (final)

Half bun double cheeseburger x2 40 g carbs
Alfredo zoodles & chicken 15 g (55)
Vanilla iced cream 3 (58)
Dark chocolate squares 15 (63)

5 (final)

Cauli-A-Roni (Rice-A-Roni seasoning packet made with grated cauliflower) and sausage- 10 g carbs (I threw out the nutrition info on the sausage, so I rounded way up on the carbs, just in case)

More pizza 22 (32 g)

Vanilla coconut homemade iced cream (HOOOLY MOTHER OF wow this is good) two 1/4 cup servings = 6 g

I'm about to try it as a low carb Diet Coke float. Wish me luck!
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Update: No. Do not put real cream in Diet Coke. It just sits on top and looks gross.

More vanilla coconut & cocoa iced creams 14 g (52)

Quiche experiment 15 - Tis much better the second day as all the bacon grease has softened the overcooked crust. The next batch will be better, but once you put some cheese on the top this one still isn't bad (67)

Buttered cauliflower 6 (73)

Cheese dogs 6

I've made them but I dunno if I really want to eat them so we'll see.

Rum 0 carbs woo

Update: I ate the hot dogs pretty much because they were next to me. (79)

4 (final)

Ft 2-egg omelett (I'm out of eggs, horror!) with red pepper, purple onion, and bacon sausage 5 g carbs

Chocolate iced cream* 12 g if I eat two servings - I made 5 (17)

*Pour cream, add cocoa, whip, eat. Or freeze then eat. Is delish. Today I added the same amount of sugar yesterday, but also mixed in two tablespoons of coconut flour on impulse. I forgot I had coconut cream :P Oh well, next time... and there WILL be a next time. It is rich and chocolatey, and it takes a moment for the full chocolate flavor to hit your tongue, so it begs to be eaten slowly, not wolfed down.

Chicken with purple onion, orange pepper, and alfredo sauce 10 g (27)

Two McD's filet o fish patties with cheese & tartar sauce 21 g (58)

Whipped cream with the iced cream 5 g (63)

Quiche experiment 15 g (78)

Pizza 22 g (100)

3 (final)

Breakfast:
Not one, but TWO low carb crepes. They're basically giant fat bombs, but they are delicious and comforting. This is only day three, and comfort eating is allowed as long as I stay within the carb limit. I added chocolate chips, cream cheese, and whipped cream. 35 g carbs.

I'm not sure if I've made an official announcement, but it's my usual max of 100 g net carbs daily.

Our Goodwills have 50% off all used merchandise the first Saturday of each month... Goodwill Hunting Saturday is this saturday. I haven't done one in a while and I really, really wanted to be back at or near my winter size. Too late now.

But I CAN do restricted calorie low carb Thurs & Fri to get a few pounds off. I know I wouldn't lose a lot of real weight in two days, but I could get off 2-5 pounds*, and that would still shrink me a little for the purpose of testing how clothes fit.

*I don't have a scale and don't intend to weigh, but getting my waist back down from 30" would be hella nice. I'll be able to tell weight is coming off, even if I don't know how much.

If they're snug, I'll still feel how they fit my proportions overall. If I can't get them on, that's a different story.

Lunch: Low carb ham/bologna/cheese wrap with olives 18 g (53)

Whipped cocoa cream with a sprinkle of sugar 8 g (61)
This is half a cup of cream, so I have only nibbled a little of it. I'm going to go ahead and count it, going on the assumption I'll eat it all at some point today.

Black olive pizza with homemade crust 20 g (81)

Bedtime snack:
The remainder of the pizza dough, cooked plain. The taste and texture absolutely fantastic - very much like a real thin cheesy bread.

2 (final)

1 cup 2% milk 13 g carbs

Bologna & American cheese 7 g (20)

Pepper Triscuits 10 (30)

Starbucks sugar free mocha latte 20 g????? How the heck do they not have real nutrition info???? UGh. But a regular 16 oz has 38 g so surely one that is allegedly sugar free has less than half that? (50)

Low carb pizza (homemade on a "Carb Smart" tortilla) 14 g (64)

Chocolate peanut butter cream abomination 14 g (78)

Ham & avocado 9 g (87)

Rum & Diet Coke: Yay, no carbs! Probably not the best diet drink, but at least there's no sugar.

New day... New month (final)

I really bombed yesterday. There was chocolate cake in the break room.

Very, very good chocolate cake.

I know where I'm getting my next one from when I'm allowed to have it.

I ate some. I ate a lot.

I started the day with low carb stuff but I forget what I ate before the cake.

After work I had a Hardee's Frisco burger, a small fry, and a 3 piece chicken taquitos.

TODAY

I started with a low carb turkey & American wrap 15 g carbs

It was a hellacious day; I didn't have time for a proper meal break so I chugged a carton of milk so I wouldn't collapse (2% always; skim is evil and not dairy) 13 g

3 cheese dogs 6 g

Steamed broccoli with American and Swiss cheese and butter 17 g carbs

51 g carbs

I'm dead tired so I'm sure I'll get to sleep without bombing tonight. At most I'll have a few squares of dark chocolate (~20 g) or maybe a giant spoonful of peanut butter (~12).

Edit: I did both. PB 12 g and 3 squares Dove dark chocolate (it has to be 3 squares; don't question it) 13 g (76 g carbs total)